Thankful.

I am not going to lie - the last few months have been rough, really rough - but these last few days I have finally started to feel the sun shining, my heart beating and my smile returning. My circumstances haven't changed, but how thankful I am - has.  

Choosing to be thankful to my God for the plan he has, the love He gives, and peace He offers - is slowly changing my life. I am so thankful for a God who allows me to fall apart, but will always put me back together again.  

If things seems rough right now - keep going - you are loved, beautiful, held and have a purpose.  I know your sunshine will return, your head will stop spinning and your breath will once again find its place in your chest. I am so thankful for this truth, for you, and for our God. 

Tuesday

Tuesday reminded me how difficult effective communication is.
Tuesday hurt.
Tuesday made me cry.
Tuesday I talked to wonderful person.
Tuesday I was told I am "crazy - insane - dramatic"

Tuesday I realized I sometimes I am "crazy- insane - dramatic,"

but
sometimes "crazy - insane - dramatic" creates its own beauty. 

and Tuesday I just decided to embrace it - 

‎"I like to see people reunited, maybe that's a silly idea, but what can I say, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone."

Jonathan Safran Foer

“To live content with small means; to seek elegance rather than luxury, and refinement rather than fashion, to be worthy, not respectable, and wealthy, not rich; to study hard, think quietly, talk gently, act frankly, to listen to stars and birds, to babes and sages, with open heart, to bear all cheerfully, to all bravely await occasions, hurry never. In a word, to let the spiritual unbidden and unconscious grow up through the common. This is to be my symphony.” 


― William Henry Channing