fit.

Today, right now, I am sitting in NY. I am sitting in a Starbucks on 29th and Madison, smooth jazz is playing and I am unwinding after a long few days in the city. I have not had much time to think. Just putting on these heels, slipping on that dress, hopping on that subway and attending that that show - it has been wonderful thats for sure - but a lot unreal.

It seems I have stepped into a different life. I mean I usually do not even wear make-up and yesterday I put on heels, curled my hair, and put on a full face of make-up. It was fun to get dressed up. I wore the most amazing Ruby pants, got mistaken for a model and got to spend time with my bestie. I am here helping in anyway I can with her dream of becoming a beauty editor. I have to say she is amazing, SO much skill.

But anyways, here I am - sitting in a NY Starbucks and real life is still happening. I am sitting across from a couple who are having a tough talk. I can see the pain on his face and I suspect tears brimming in her eyes, I cannot tell she keeps moving her hair to hide her face. I can tell he wants her, but something isn't working. I heard snippets of the conversation, "I don't know if I can wait - I mean what if we start hanging out and you decide you still don't want to get back together with me," and "I can love every minute of us hanging out together, but if we are really not together..."

Im sitting here having a NY dream day - and they are sitting there just one table away - yet in a whole different reality.

I am realizing more and more how easy it is to get out-of-touch with reality. How easy it is to loose your grounding. How easy it is to forget the pain that others are feeling, to forget the man sleeping on the street, or the lady struggling to keep food on her table. Its easy to become so dressed up that you forget you reach down.

I am having a wonderful experience and learning so much. Learning so much about a new industry - and so much about the life I want to live. I never want to forget. I never want be so done-up that I cannot let it all down. Life is one big puzzle and I am just looking to find right where God wants me to fit.