I have started reading a book called “Crazy Love” by Francis Chan

I was given this book by a friend who said it was exceptional—I don’t know if I would go as far as acclaiming it exceptional—but I am only to the second chapter. I find that this book has had a way of speaking to ME every time I have opened it.

Today my reading was on Worry and Stress.

He says:

“Worry and Stress wreak of Arrogance”

and

"there is a perplexing command: "rejoice in the Lord always . I will say it again: Rejoice" (Phil.4:4). You'll notice that it doesn't end with "...unless you're doing something extremely important." No, its a command for all of us, and follows with the charge, "Do not be anxious about Anything."

Do not even be anxious about anything?!

The book then goes on to explain that if we worry and are stressin' we are in a way saying that are problems are so big that they overshadow GOds commandment to not be anxious about anything.

Man. This is a hard thing to do, but then I am reminded: My life is fleeting. MY God created ME. He created me with the ability to think, function, live. Since HE has done this--is taking care of ME really something HE cannot handle? No. God is big enough to handle all my worries, all the things I am anxious about. And for that I am SO grateful.

My other favorite quote from this book:

"Isn't it a comfort to worship a God that we cannot exaggerate?"

How cool is that? How amazing is it that we cannot exaggerate God. The God who made me, can handle all my worries--and is that big--HE can never be exaggerated.

So why do I question that He holds me in HiS hands--and will take all my anxieties, worries and pain and do something with them--that I can't.

(all these ideas were results of reading "Crazy Love" Im in a research class with a large focus on plagiarism SO I am being extra careful LOL)

Just BE.

Today I want to just BE...

wrapped in YOUR love God.

Filled with YOUR Joy.

Focused

Free

loving.

THe Woman GOd created me to BE.

I want to simply BE--whatever and however that manifests.

This above statement seems so simple--but let me say that for me this is hard. Very hard sometimes. I let fear, pain, worry, loneliness and analyzation get in the way. I want things the way they were, but cant have them right now. I want to know where Im going, but have to focus on where I am.

Every day I have fun, and have been enjoying life--but why when I wake up in the morning do I have to remind myself to get out of bed?! Life. I love you. but you are oh so confusing sometimes!

Today I am focusing on just one thing. I am just going to curl up in GOds right hand and let HIM carry my through.

As we start another Monday--Know that I am praying for all of you--friends and family and I love you oh so much. Thanks for being you and bringing Joy to my life.

I want to BE:

The Peaceful Woman:

A peaceful woman seeks wisdom.

She loves to grow, explore, and change.

She finds truth and inspiration.

She remains authentic, yet GLOWS with elegance.

She stops seeking perfection, and takes time to be.

She loves life and lives fully.

She draws you near to her soul.

God please make me what YOU want me to be.

live life. What does that mean?

I search for spontaneity. Crave creativity. miss normalcy.

Life can be hard. Life is confusing.

What do I want? I dont know.

Who am I? I am learning.

My head is spinning. cluttered with thoughts.

Run away to some place simple. Someplace pure.

Bangladesh your calling my name. A place where things were simple, joyous.

Adjusting.

I am just glad to be alive..