today was a long day--

this is going to be a long week--

I JUST REMEMBERED--a inspiring person, Janet put a little something in my mailbox

I dont know what it is--but I am going downstairs RIGHT NOW to get it!

Thanks Janet for dropping by something--and totally making my day!

Love you!

"Pretty"

I love playing dress-up--

I love putting on glossy lipstick

and smooth body butters--

I love coloring my eye lids with hues of glow

and polishing up from head-to-toe.

I love the feeling of looking in the mirror and truly thinking--"I look beautiful"

But I never want to be simply Pretty.

I want to be pretty and more--

I want to be inspiring, intelligent, real.

I want to wear pure, uninhibited joy

and smooth away my wrinkles with love.

I want to gloss my lips with kindness

and frost my eyes with forgiveness

I want to look in the mirror and truly think--"I feel beautiful--from the inside out"

For I have realized that joy, kindness, and forgiveness

are accessories essential to any outfit.

They are worth more then a pretty face--

and can cover any unseemly marks

I love to play dress-up--

I love the feeling of glossy lips

and shiny shoes--

But I have realized that dressing up on the outside

is never fully as beautiful without

love, passion, and compassion filling the inside.

I am now the Beauty and Fashion Editor for the Walla Walla Lifestyles magazine!--If you are in Walla Walla please join me for the Launch Party we will be having Friday December 3--

ouch. my heart hurts.

I woke up at 6:00am--and just couldn't sleep--

Missy is packing up her stuff and it just seems unreal that she is leaving--going back to NZ--I don't want her to leave. I don't want it to be reality--but it is.

The worst things in life are the ones you don't want to be true--but they are. The things that you wish so desperately to change but you can't--

Missy your wonderful--smart and beautiful--as I watch you be strong, move on, and throw away--I can see the pain--I can see the hurt--but I can also see the strength, the love, the passion, the joy, and the uniqueness you hold within you. And that dear friend is amazing. You are beautiful on the inside and out-- and I love you. I will miss you more then you know. Keep breathing--keep being you--because no matter what anyone says--I know you and YOU is amazing--JUST THE WAY YOU ARE. Thanks for showing me something to aspire to. You are inspiration, you are worth it, and you are a chosen woman of God--and I am in aw of you.

Love LOve Love you my dear friend I will miss you--but can't wait to visit you and your Kiwi self! NZ will never know what hit it! :)

the world is full of hurt

full of achy breaky hearts

but some of my favorite people have something special

something special inside of them

something so inspiring that it fills me up when

everything else is telling me to hurt

I look around and see you

I see you shining

I see you being more then you should

Because of you I am inspired to be more

to shine when I feel dim

to look for the flicker of light and warmth in ice cold souls

to give more--expect less

care when I don't want to

and look for the small pieces of exceptional

the world is full of hurt

full of achy breaky hearts

but thankfully I have people like you

the ones who can make darkness sparkle

and ice melt

‎"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have
the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it
shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just
one day, today, and I'm going to be happy in it"

This morning I woke up with a subtle headache--

A knot in my stomach--

I have a Chem test today.

My hands are a little sweaty, I was in tears once yesterday--

I am silly--

This morning when I woke up. I jumped on my computer--quickly printing off an assignment before some more quick Chem Test studying--and there were 7 emails sitting in my inbox.

One email from a very dear friend of mine--As I read yet another segment of her story I realized--she has things to wake up in knots about. She has things to be angry about. She has things to worry about--and all things that are quite frankly ridicules things to have to deal with. The kind of things that are centered around judgement--not love. But you know what she does? She looks for the silver lining. She sees the pain, and confronts it--and then looks for something better.

I am continually inspired by this friend--and so thankful to have friends like this in my life.

I have been thinking about this issue of judgement and am faced with this final question:

How some life life so full of judgement for others? But how can I life live without judging those for their judgment?

Today I have a Chem test--be in reality--I have a life test. I might not Ace my Chemistry but I will do well on my life test--Remembering that life is bigger than tests, grades, and expectations--bigger than stress, judgement, fear and worry. God please take those.