It is a terrible feeling. It may have been because I went to bed cranky--for no accord. Or it might have been because I woke up too early--with way too many things on my mind. Or it may have been because of the rain, classes, or loneliness--. It may have been any of these things--but I still do not like the feeling.
Right now I am not cranky. I am excited. I am excited for the day to come, rain and all. but I wonder--why? Why do I have to wake-up cranky? God has given me so much and I wonder--does He find it annoying when I wake-up and forget? When I choose to be cranky? Thank-YOU God for being a God who loves even when we forget. Who is there to lift us up even when we are stubborn--and for being a God who can take me even when I am in the mist of all my crank-y-ness.
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
God COMPLETELY deserves my best--because He completely takes me at my worst.